My cousin's girlfriend has repeatedly been complaining that someone's doing laundry at night or early in the morning is disrupting her infant son's sleep pattern. Is it just me, or wouldn't it be logical to move the child to a room not next to the washer? Obviously you knew there was a washer there if it is as loud as you claim. So why would you choose that room for your infant son? In defense of the people doing their laundry, normal people work during the day. We don't have the luxury of staying home to play house all day. Sometimes I don't get to do my laundry til after midnight cuz of my schedule. Other times I might have the day off and get up early to do my laundry and vacuuuming. Yet my daughter sleeps through all of it. Even when I vacuum her room. So I don't really understand what the problem is. Maybe she should get out of the house and stop baby-ing the child. I think they both need a break from each other. I can tell he's going to be one needy, spoiled brat when he gets older. I should know, I was the same way.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Confusion
I know we've both had a lot going on, but I'm trying to get it together. I want so badly for things to work out that I'm afraid of screwing everything up. Lately I don't know how to read his moods and I don't want to take everything personally. I'm ecstatic that we're finally getting our chance we missed out on all those years ago, I hope he still feels the same way. Its hard trying to be patient after all this time and anticipating the moment we'd find each other again. I'm trying really hard though because I know he's busy with his own life, trying to get his bar going and getting things back together. Hell, for all I know, he's busy making room for me as well. We'll see.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Pittsburg dreaming..
What an unbelievable week this has been! Someone from my past has resurfaced and found me again, so I have been on cloud 9 since Friday. It is so unbelievable to be talking to him again, like nothing has changed! I feel like I'm 22 again and dreaming of the possibilities. May even be considering relocating. He reminded me how I wanted to pursue art school out there and we could entertain the thought of finally being together. He had it all planned out, even a place for me to stay while I was at school..until we decided we were going to be together that is. I think I'm in love! This will be an incredible journey if it continues this way! <3
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Alone
Last night I spent my first night truly alone..no one here, no one to talk to, no real clue to what's going on. M got arrested, but I'm still not certain why. I've been given two different stories now and neither one makes much sense. I spent half the night trying to find my daughter, worried sick cuz I had no clue what was going on. Scared to death cuz I couldn't find her. I finally came home, defeated and exhausted. Not sure how long I actually slept but I got up around 6:30 to go out looking for her again. What kind of mother must I be to not know where her baby is? So I went back to the address I had been given, still no answer. Drove to M's work and ran into his boss. I had the dog with me too cuz I was so lonely. Boss man took me to his daughter's house, she called me on the way and I got my baby back. No, I'm still not okay with what happened, may never be ok. I was so terrified that I'd lost her forever. I never want to let her out of my sight again..I know that isn't possible though. Life will go on. Now l just wish I knew what is going on with M...