Been sitting at work today wondering where things ate going now.it's been a year since I decided it was time to move on. My daughter has not been sleeping through the night in a long time. I don't know how to help her anymore. She seems to have adjusted well enough to not having her father around, yet she still seems to be having abandonment issues where I am concerned. I'm starting to wonder if we both need to start seeing a psychiatrist. Which, speaking of doctors, got me thinking that I really need to go back to my doctor, even though I think he's a quack. I need a general wellness exam to find out what's wrong with me. I've been getting headaches all this week, which may be from lack of sleep, or interrupted sleep anyways. I also need to find an opthamologist to find out what's wrong with my left eye..maybe that's causing my headaches...
Friday, February 15, 2013
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Pinteresting
For those of you who are not on pinterest, or do not follow me,I will be blogging here abt some of the fun & interesting ideas I've found on pinterest.
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Getting it together
Today is my daughter's first birthday. The year is half over and what do I have to report on my "year of liz"? Well, not a whole lot of anything really. I did sit down tonight with a sheet of paper and work out the budget. And we're sticking to it this time if it kills us, dammit. I am so sick of worrying about if the bills got paid that I'm finally going to grow up and take responsibility for them myself. I know what you're thinking. I am an adult and should have been responsible all along. I wasn't irresponsible. I was misled to believing that things had already been taken care of. Lesson learned. Isn't that what life is about? Learning things? So now that I know better I can move on. Maybe this time around I can start saving again too.
Monday, April 9, 2012
Downwardly Spiraling Uncontrolably
Since my last personal post, my life has taken a tailspin. Chaos was less chaotic than my life right now. M won't be home now til the end of May or early June. He has writtwn me twice now. I wrote back, but still haven't gotten it out in the mail yet. I still don't have my debit card, i'm hoping it comes today. My friend in Pittsburg has been distant, so I don't know what's going on there anymore. I'm sure he's just busy with life, as I've been, but I wish we would talk more. Since I last wrote, I've met someone new. Things have been amazing. We've been together every night since we've met and I just can't get enough. He's been trying to take care of me,which is a welcome change. Not that M didn't take care of me, it just seems I was more the giver than the receiver in that. As the household stands right now, the electric and water are nonexistent, the dog is destroying everything still, the cat needs to go to the vet, my car is falling apart and needs new brakes.. I think that covers everything that's happening here. Oh, one more thing, I think I have a bladder infection too. So much for this being the year of Liz..guess there's always next year.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Why complain about things you can change?
My cousin's girlfriend has repeatedly been complaining that someone's doing laundry at night or early in the morning is disrupting her infant son's sleep pattern. Is it just me, or wouldn't it be logical to move the child to a room not next to the washer? Obviously you knew there was a washer there if it is as loud as you claim. So why would you choose that room for your infant son? In defense of the people doing their laundry, normal people work during the day. We don't have the luxury of staying home to play house all day. Sometimes I don't get to do my laundry til after midnight cuz of my schedule. Other times I might have the day off and get up early to do my laundry and vacuuuming. Yet my daughter sleeps through all of it. Even when I vacuum her room. So I don't really understand what the problem is. Maybe she should get out of the house and stop baby-ing the child. I think they both need a break from each other. I can tell he's going to be one needy, spoiled brat when he gets older. I should know, I was the same way.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Confusion
I know we've both had a lot going on, but I'm trying to get it together. I want so badly for things to work out that I'm afraid of screwing everything up. Lately I don't know how to read his moods and I don't want to take everything personally. I'm ecstatic that we're finally getting our chance we missed out on all those years ago, I hope he still feels the same way. Its hard trying to be patient after all this time and anticipating the moment we'd find each other again. I'm trying really hard though because I know he's busy with his own life, trying to get his bar going and getting things back together. Hell, for all I know, he's busy making room for me as well. We'll see.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Pittsburg dreaming..
What an unbelievable week this has been! Someone from my past has resurfaced and found me again, so I have been on cloud 9 since Friday. It is so unbelievable to be talking to him again, like nothing has changed! I feel like I'm 22 again and dreaming of the possibilities. May even be considering relocating. He reminded me how I wanted to pursue art school out there and we could entertain the thought of finally being together. He had it all planned out, even a place for me to stay while I was at school..until we decided we were going to be together that is. I think I'm in love! This will be an incredible journey if it continues this way! <3