misinformed

My last couple of posts didn't pan out..read: miscarriage :( highly devastating. But good news is, we are finally expecting again. I'm not sure if it's a good idea anymore, but no turning back now. Just wish our life was more together than it is. I am so depressed and upset that I feel like everything is falling apart. Why I thought it was a good idea is beyond me. Maybe there's a reason it never worked out before.